the rest is still unwritten

'ello mates.

here is what's going on in my life.

i am done with my awful awful job. woop! i am working 3 hours a day at main street coffee. and i love it. it's so relaxed. i love having something to do everyday. i love wearing my jeans everyday. i love learning new things. i love working with and seeing my friends. i feel like myself there.

i had an interview at a high-end salon and spa in rochester the other day. i'm going in for my second interview/shadowing tomorrow afternoon. so i guess that means the interview went well. which, it did. but now that i've slept on it and a few days have gone by, i'm not sure it would be the right fit. i don't want to count it out before i even see what it's about or get a job offer, but i think my gut is trying to tell me something. there are good points to this place/job, however. a major one being that it's everything my last job was not. aka, i interviewed for a "coordinator" position (a glorified receptionist) and there is an 8 week training just for this position. that is amazing to me. to have your expectations outlined and job responsibilities spelled out...it's like a dream. but it's so ritzy that it's like, i walked in there and every person working there was amazingly beautiful, dressed super nice, and looked really put together. i'm not sure i could do that everyday. i've been saying that those are the type of girls i think i've always wanted to be, but am not. sometimes i just don't have the motivation to look amazing. and i'm ok with that. it's weird how one interview has made me re-examine myself so much. but i think it's important. i'm really reevaluating what's important to me, where i feel comfortable, and what i want in life. like, i think i would probably be ok at that job, but i think that it wouldn't take long before i felt like i was acting everyday. i'm not sure i would be happy getting up every morning to do that. plus, it's just exactly the opposite of gcasa in the flexibility area, which would be a huge adjustment. i got used to such a laid back environment, and this would def not be like that. bottom line is, at the end of the day i want to go home liking my job and who i am while i'm there.

and while we're on this self-evaluation kick, i'm rethinking grad school as well. i just think i'm not ready for a career. or to decide what i want to do for the rest of my life. right now i'm the happiest i've been in a long time. i wish i could keep doing this forever. but obviously 18 hours a week at minimum wage isn't going to sustain me for long. i'm not ready to grow up. i admire my friends who are teachers and have chosen a career and everything. i'm just not ready. i can't imagine working a job now that i could have for the next 35 years of my life. and i don't want to go to grad school just because i "should." i don't know what to doooooooo. :)

so how do i figure out what to do? now, and in the long term?

well, luckily or unluckily, i've lost my train of thought.

over and out. loves.

fourth rung of the ladder

i meant to blog about this before. but, i've been busy?

last week was down to earth approach's last show. ever. they played at msc. and it was awesome. i seriously spent the whole night feeling like i was 14 again watching the burns:) singing along, buying a shirt, i even got the drumstick. haha. it was so much fun. i even felt a little sad. it's weird to think that they are done after playing together for so long. i kind of feel like part of my youth is over now. i'll never have that super-excited-hot-guys-playing-guitars feeling again. anyway, those guys have provided a lot of awesome memories. tons of shows, lots of drumsticks, riding in the van to ohio, buying their cd out of town. good times. i'll miss 'em.

so many good lyrics to choose from. but i guess i'll have to go with a dtea classic. (altho not fourth rung of the ladder:))



this ain't science baby, it's called creativity
♥

it's all over (clap clap clapclapclap)

today is september 6th.
tomorrow is september 7th.
monday is september 10th.
on monday i will be unemployed.

woo! no more of this horrible place! but at the same time wtf am i doing? i'm mostly excited, but still scared. all i really need is a job to pay my rent. i want to focus on school. i think i'd be ok working in the mall or something. some of my coworkers even got me kind of excited about it. low(ish) stress, discounts on clothes. why not? i need to make a plan for next week. go into rochester at least a few times and apply for shiz.

two of my coworkers got me the cutest going away gift. it's pina colada mix. and they wrote my name and taped it on the label. they've always gotten a kick out of the fact that my name rhymes with pina colada. and they always sing me the song. it's cute.

i have my exit interview tomorrow. i am not too worried about it, but i am a little bit concerned. i'm not sure if i should bring up the shadyness of the situation. because of course now everyone's acting all nice and whatnot, but at the same time, my job has already been posted. budget issue my ass. i guess i probably should say something. i think i will at least turn in my evaluation. altho, she could likely throw it away if she doesn't like what she sees and say that i never turned it in, but i guess i'm willing to take that risk. there is a slight chance the management here isn't as heartless as they seem.

i am about 85% super super super happy to be out of here. and 15% slightly sad. i genuinely enjoy most of my coworkers and have fun with them. it seems that just as i'm fitting in here, i'm leaving. but it's ok because the actually work part of this job still sucks and i can still talk to them without having to suffer thru working here.

i am kind of worried about moving tho because i'm in the same type of situation. the social life here has finally come around again, we are all a group of friends again, i have cassie and everything, and now we're leaving. she'll be moving to buffalo too, so that's a bummer. maybe they'll surprise me and come visit more than i'm expecting. gotta live it up while we're still here. carpe diem.

this post reminds me of "free writes" in 8th grade english. write whatever pops into your head. it's lame.